Another day, another failed psoriasis product

So yes, it's been two months since my last post, but I wanted to give the cream a fair chance at... well doing literally anything, but unfortunately, no relief in terms of psoriasis was seen. Sure my shin was silky smooth, but personally I'm not a big fan of whatever fragrance the cream has, and just recently learned the cream contains parabens -_-. Parabens are a bunch of synthetic compounds commonly used as preservatives in lots of health and beauty care products. If a product contains methylparaben, ethylparaben, propylparaben, butylparaben and isobutylparaben, congrats, it has parabens. So yes, parabens are in literally thousands of products, and sure, it could be easy to assume one lil paraben product will be fine, but if you have psoriasis, like I do, then you probably are aware that every damn thing out there is bad enough, to be adding parabens to the list of things to worry about. I decided that since the cream wasn't doing anything any normal lotion/cream couldnt do, that I will not be using the rest of the cream, and am as of now deeming the product somewhat worthless for psoriasis related symptoms.

The quest continues. It's ok, nothing new. Just another of the hundreds of products that don't really help. But that's kind of why I started this blog. I have a .txt file full of products people have mentioned in forums etc that I'm just systematically doing down, trying to find something other than Humira that actually works. Speaking of Humira, I am not currently on Humira, it's been about 3 months and I will tell you what has been happening since stopping Humira for me. At about month 1, with no more Humira, I definitely noticed my joints getting inflamed again. For me, it's subtle, but I for sure have psoriatic arthritis, which I didn't even notice I had until I started Humira, and suddenly I could get out of bed and walk to the bathroom without first stretching/cracking my ankles and knees. I just figured my whole body being stiff and crackling all over the place every morning was part of turning 33, and that this was just part of getting old. Well, I'm sure it is, but when all that went away after my first month of Humira, and suddenly I could run and do other things without actually hurting, I realized yep, I have inflamed joints! Anyways I digress, after one month, that started coming back. And my back started hurting randomly again after sitting in chairs weird or raking leaves. I feel like a normal person should be able to do these things and not be in pain for like 3 days afterwards. After about the two month mark, I noticed psoriasis was slowly returning the the back of my head, and behind my ears a little bit, which I guess luckily is covered by hair, but any return of psoriasis is like the beginning of another round of self-conciseness and nervous scratching etc. At 3 months, (as in like, the last week) I've noticed it returning to just inside my right ear. I've also noticed my fingernails are slowly starting to pit again. tiny little indents in my index, pinky and thumb. The look of psoriasis nails for me, is the worst part of psoriasis. It is the hardest to hide, and the longest to fix, so with that, I am going to attempt to get back on Humira. It is the only thing I've found that helps with any of this. Unfortunately, every year I have to re-apply to the Abbvie foundation to try and get Humira Rx'ed again from my Doc, and for that, I have to go back to my dermatologist for a check-up, which, without insurance of course costs about $400 out of pocket just for the visit. Sadly that is worth it for me :( Psoriasis is such a drag! I will try to update on my status once I know or not if I can make another miracle happen, and get Humira once again. Wish me luck!